A Spiral and an Attempt to Apply Myself

A Spiral and an Attempt to Apply Myself

I’ve been awake for a couple of hours now, and it hasn’t been good. I didn’t have a bad sleep, it was just shorter than I’d have liked. Additionally, my brain refused to shut off once I woke up, and I ended up anxious. I didn’t go for the full spiral, but still pretty sucky. Mostly, just mentally freaking out over bills and things.

3/10, do not recommend.

Yesterday, I applied for a job. I want to make some money and get out of the house. If I lived close to a place where I could access the beach for free, I’d just bring a speaker and some poi and busk for the old people. But alas, no. I applied at the smoke shop. They have a couple of locations, and two of the three are somewhat close to the house. I can wear jeans and have weird hair and not worry about a drug test.

Even though it was the most generic job application, I felt absolutely ridiculous filling it out. They wanted four prior jobs, and I put down two. If I went back that far, the last two would have been shit I did right after high school, when dial-up internet was still a thing. While I could probably come up with the company names in the correct order, I’d struggle with employment dates, and I’ll be damned if I could remember managers. Most of the companies don’t even exist anymore.

The absolute worst was putting down people for references. Do I know people who would give me good references? Absolutely. Do I know these people in the meatspace? Absolutely not. I warned my bff, DayTech and BossRPh that I put them down, and asked them to please just tell them I’m normal and not a complete psycho if they call.

Today is Saturday, so that means grocery shopping. Mom has some laundry in the wash, and I think I’m going to wear some comfy leggings and my Wu-Tang hoody. It’s still too cold to go outside and paint, but I want to figure out a way to rig some sort of t-square that I can use when I trace the rough sketches before painting. I can at least do some work.

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